I went to the doctors yesterday and told him about stuff..:help:
I was referred to a urologist (spell?)... but I didnt know that until the urologist called today..:eek: I thought he said an MRI was being referred.?
(another one!)
He switched my viccodan for ultram, just like I asked and wanted.
I got a perscription for a cream in case I ever get a rash again.
I got on high blood pressure medication and that made me cry, I am surpose to be getting healthier here!:confused:
I weighed 342.. its climbing..
I didnt get the results of my blood yet..
I got bitched at for my use of prednisone.. (well ya know, not really)
prednione this, prednisone that...(rash, diabeties, high blood pressure)
I get 5mg a friggin day.. THAT CANT be harming me.. (I save it up and use it NOT in 5ml a day, I TELL HIM exactly how I use it.. ITS STILL such a low dose!)
Well, Tuesday I had my first fill. It was uneventful, just a small pinch and a little sting and then it was over. I'm impressed with my doctor's office though. It involved 3 people doing the fill. The Nurse Practioner handled the needle, another handled the piece of equipment that showed my stomach and band on the computer monitor, and the other gave me the chalky solution to drink. Very professional and quick.
I know the Nurse Practioner and one of the assistants have had the procedure because they are in Dr. Jays advertisement. And if I had not already known that they had the surgery, you would never guessed that they were once overweight. You know sometimes how you can tell that someone has lost weight rapidly, ie. gastric bypass. They just look like normal people who are thin.
It just seems that it will be a long, long time before I can say hey I'm finally there. When they weighed me, I had lost 4 more pounds. I guess I have to keep my mantra to One Day at a Time! I still don't feel any restriction though. And I know that it might take several fills until I reach that sweet spot, but I'm going to continue walking and trying to eat sensibly. My next fill will be in a month and hopefully I will continue with this steady weight loss.
What the hell did I do to myself? I have to remind myself BMI 42, hypertension, diabetic and very fat
3rd day post op still a lot of pain. Tired all the time
4th day post op wondering if I will ever feel good again. Phoned the emergency line and spoke with Dr Mumford. I told him that I still had a lot of pain especially when I had liquid in my stomach. He said that my stomach was probably imflammed and to stick to water only until the imflamation has was gone. Probably it will take until Tuesday. 3 more days
5th day post op. On water only and it's working-hardly any pain! I have to keep drinking water to stay hydrated
OK feeling better now. Sept. 3rd. I am hungry a lot. My first fill is scheduled for Oct. 5th. I have some restriction but not enough. I am starting to exercise again, 4 km walk yesterday. My legs and lower back hurt. All I have to do is lose more weight and the pain should go away
Well, it's been a good minute since I've last updated my journal...what a two weeks! I have to say there's been some good and bad, I'll start from the beginning..
1. I found out that I was pregnant a week ago...I know, how is that going to work with my band??? That's the million dollar question! I just went to the Dr. this morning and I'm estimated to be about 10 weeks, won't know the exact time until my ultrasound on Monday.
2. I don't think I've done any damage, but I couldn't stomach anymore broth, jello, pudding, etc. So, I've already started eating solids, just very carefully. I've learned to listen to my body and feel when my food passes through the band. I have to say, I haven't eaten anything terrible..I just started out early since I obviously was pregnant and hungry! lol. For example, this afternoon I had lunch with my boyfriend (aka: baby daddy, lol) and I had a very small ceasar salad with half a slab of smoked salmon. Last night, I made tacos but I only ate meat, beans, lettuce, tomatoe, etc...no shell. My friends yell at me all the time for eating too soon, but they don't want to see me get angry and let my hormones kick in! lol.
3. After surgery, I decided to let my body heal before working out..now that I know I'm pregnant..the tiredness is kicking in and I'm having an extremely hard time hitting the gym and/or pool! Dayum!
4. IN TWO WEEKS, and as of today at the Dr.'s office..I'VE LOST 23LBS! I'M SOO HAPPY considering I haven't seen the inside of my gym yet! lol.
My scars are very minimal right now, thank goodness. I was kinda worried since the Dr. didn't use any surgical tape. I'll have to attach pictures when I get home.
The pictures that I did attach are one from today (on the left) and one from a week ago (on the right).
It's day number 21 for me. I feel grrrrreeeeaaattt. After surgery they schedule a two week check-up. Mine was August 9, 2006. From the date of surgery to my check-up, I lost 17 pounds. So they gave me my cap and gown and patted me on my back.:cheer2: I have graduated to soft foods, ya'll. Let's just say I have been waiting for this day. So that weekend I made a potato soup with carrots and celery. Yummy, right? Yes, indeed. But, some how I managed to put on 3 pounds. I ate the soup from Sunday until Wednesday and saw that I gained. :eek: What gives? My answer to that question came the next morning. Ladies, I know you understand me. So next week I might weigh myself. (crossing fingers) I feel the new me coming out. There are so many things on my list to do. I can't use my weight as a reason not to do. Just to name a few: Sky diving, Bungee Jumping, Learning how to Sail, Learn how to Drive a Race Car, Dirt Bike, Motorcycle, Hang out with my girl-friends more than once of month. I'm sure they'll like that. Oh, yeah one more thing..... Six Flags here I come. It's off the beauty shop and then the gym.
Okay so things have gotten better..way better. I'll do this in chronological order:
1. I call the doc's office they are closed...can't reschedule..ugh bummed.
2. Talk to a former co-worker, same surgeon did her banding 2 weeks ago....no pain at all.....everything great with her!!!! Yay. (still freaking thinking the doc won't bend for me)
3. Another pre-bander emails me to tell me about her doc. I look up the hosp in my insurance...covered ...yay!!! The doc I want is not covered...boo-hoo.
4. My sis calls to finally give me the emotional support I need...I called her at 10am and she was still out cold. Anyway she tells me take the time off from school-I am smart and get good grades, she reminds me -its no worse than being out sick for the day...duh I forgot that...see why I needed her support?--she knows just the right words to use...lol.
5. I forgot to mention--I got my sleep machine...OMG the guy was on his way to my house and THE POWER GOES OUT...omg someone somewhere doesn't want this to happen for me...he calls to say he is on his way..i do not tell him about the power...good thing...right as I hang up the power goes back on---yeah--someone IS looking out for me!!!:eek:
6. I call the doc's office today-returning a call i didn't know i had because it was on my cell which was out in the car. They change my date to the 27th...totally do-able...and...guess what I was wrong about my schedule...I only have two classes on Wednesday's not 4...whoo hoo!
So I will have surgery on Sept 27th....and only miss 3 classes....omg this is awsome! (I will not have to drive into a tree after all-see prev journal entry...lol) I am so excited I think I will go clean the kitchen!!!!! Ha ha ha...odd thing to say I know, was too upset to do anything...feel like a great weight (ha ha) has been lifted...now feel normal. TTFN!!!!:confused:
Oh lovely, I knew it was bound to happen. Mother nature visits today and the rest of the week. Probably not a good time to be PMS'ing...on top of everything else.
I didn't sleep that well last night. Dani called at 11:30 and woke me up. I weighed 243.4 when I went to bed. Woke up this morning at 241.2 So the VT weight is falling off of me. So far today I've had one and a half shakes and I'm feeling a little hungry.
COnsidering what I'm going through, my mood in not that bad. Going to go have some broth and water now, need to keep my energy up.
August 14th - day 1 - not too terribly bad. This was the beginning of a new life for me. I could feel it, I could see it. I came home on Sunday from a trip to Vermont. When I got on the scale it read 249 lbs. I knew I had eaten badly in VT but I didn't think it was that bad.
For dinner on Sunday, I had my last meal of shrimp fried rice and egg drop soup....it was very good. I took a couple of Sacra sagrada to help me go to the bathroom in the morning. I weighed in on Monday the 14th at 247 lbs.
I have to be down to 237 according to Dr. Greenes pre-op instructions and at this rate, I'm going in the wrong direction.
Dani is with her dad this week so I don't have to cook which makes it easier to not be around food. I was feeling a little weird so I went to bed early.
6/8/06
This was the day of my initial meeting with the WLS group and Dr. Greene. I was one of about 15 people there wanting to have the surgery done. I swear, I was the last one in the office. They took me back to a room and I know I sat that for an hour before the Dr. Greene came in.
I thought he was arrogant and not overly compassionate. He thought I would be a good candidate for the gastric bypass and not necessarily the lapband.
During this initial meeting, I also met with Mandy, the nutritionist and Laura.
During my weigh in, I was trying to weigh in heavier in the event my insurance would cover me if I were 100 lbs overweight. Didn't happen anyway, oh well.
I weighed in at exactly 255lbs. 36.6 BMI
While waiting in the waiting room I meet Donna. Though I didn't find out her name until later. She finished before me and was waiting for her ride outside when I came out.
6/1/06
My journey into lapband surgery began sometime in May 2006. I remember doing just a little bit of research on it and taking about it at Shrinemont to Hollie Mion. Shrinemont was May 15th- 21st so I know it was at least on my mind during that time.
When I got home, I started doing more research and found Dr. Greene's AWL website. I learned that he held monthly meetings and I decided to go.
The surgery seemed like something that would work for me. I knew I didn't meet the health requirements and that self-pay might be my only option. I remember speaking to him at the end of the meeting and asking about my BMI which was 36.6 at the time. He said they wouldn't weigh me anymore and just use my current weight as the basis of my insurance submittal. I made an appointment with Wendy Colbert, his right hand.
It was much later that I learned that my insurance would not cover the surgery. I had heard somewhere that the surgery costed $24,000 in the US and about $9,000 in Mexico. I was mentally preparing myself to pay $24,000 so it was a great relief when I found out it was only $14,000, yeah right, only!!!
Once again, the house is in bed, and I'm still here trawling LBT!!!!
I should go to bed, but my mind is occupied with thoughts of banding, and life after banding. I'm also a bit anxious about tomorrow's physician appt, and hoping to get a surgery date by tomorrow afternoon if all goes well. I ordered 4 boxes of Optifast for pre-surgery preparation from eBay today - I can get it posted cheaper than buying it at the shops! I'm going to start it as early as possible, to try and lose some more weight before banding.
As I try to prepare mentally for my new life, I find myself pondering over the fact that I really don't know how I will feel about losing weight and being thinner, as I've never really had much success at it. This makes me nervous, and almost feel too afraid to try (fear of failure perhaps?)... ... at least the band will keep me on track, and as my weight drops, I will be forced to deal with weight and food issues, as well as the self-image perceptions that I can still barely define.
Already, since deciding to be banded, I have come a long way, from hopelessness and depression, to a new sense of energy and hope for the future. I find I can, for the first time in my life, talk and write about being obese, and not cry about it at the same time! This is incredibly empowering for me, as I take it as a sign that my concious AND subconcious mind have both finally accepted my condition for what it is, after spending half my life being in denial. No more "out-of-sight, out-of-mind" mentality for this black duck!
I know the band will help deal with the meal time hunger and volume, and that it won't help as much to control snacking and emotional food habits. I know that I will have to define a whole new set of values about how I see myself and my place in the world, how I relate to food, how I socialise, how I deal with boredom, frustration etc. I am not a huge emotional eater (I don't binge to the degree of others, but I do on occasion have a "brain snap"), but there are aspects of those habits that need to be sorted out. I am more of a compulsive eater driven by the physical sensations of food, eating, chewing and swallowing. I am also a big social eater - showing hospitality and love towards my family and friends by breaking bread with them. The social eating will be hard to change, as it's such an ingrained thing.
I know that dealing with some of these things will be driven by the lifestyle changes the band will bring, some will be driven by the weight loss itself, but that most of them will have to come from within. This is scary, as I don't yet know where to start. I don't think that this will really begin until I am some fair way post-band. Maybe these things don't really kick in until months or years post-band, until it too has acceptance and has become just another part of the fabric of my life. Maybe I am already along the way, just don't feel I've got very far yet...
HOWEVER (and now for the biggest plus at this stage): For the first time in my life, I feel ready to face up to these old habits and demons. Finally I have accepted my condition for what it is, and also feel that I have the mental space in life at the moment, and physical stamina necessary to seek my victory... ...and the VERY best part - I feel that this is all part of God's plan for me - whatever the outcome.
I feel that now God is guiding me to change my heath for the better - something I have never experienced before in any of my weight loss attempts. I wouldn't say that "God told me to get a band" or anything silly like that, after all, the band is merely a tool. But I feel enveloped by His love, and truly guided towards success. Yet another sign of my acceptance - handing over my life and trusting in God is something that I've always struggeld with. Praise God!
I was able to get down to 26.5 lbs yesterday...then I went home and rearranged my livingroom furniture...I was to sore and tired after I was done so I didnt work out, I thought that would actually count as my work out...Then I had a kitkat candy bar...So guess what, I woke up this morning to an extra almost pound and a half...I am going to do my workout when I get home for sure today and see if I can get all that off...Kinda depressing, but thats ok...1 day out of as many as I have been good is fine...Everyone deserves a treat
I blew it... For the first time in my five months since banding I don't feel in control. I have been feeling generally blue the last couple of days and can't say why...not TOM or anything and nothing going wrong in life etc I just am!
Today I wasn't bad when I woke up and started off OK by just eating a yoghurt for breakfast. I did some errands and house jobs and then I got ready to walk on my treadmill...my knee was killing me. I put on my brace and tried again. I even tried to walk limping and holding on to bars...no can do. I don't remember doing anything to my knee, it just went.
I started nibbling and have just eaten and eaten since...another yoghurt, with chocolate bits, an egg and cheese sandwich 2 cookies from upstairs an ice-cream and a bag of chips and an iced coffee with sugar..God knows what my suagr levles will be now. To be honest I dunno how it all went down...was over a few hours mind and I feel stuffed and sad and deflated and out of control...I am scared to death that now I did this I wont be able to stop myself and I don't want to feel like that again...
Hopefully I can take stock and when knee is better tomorrow i'll just get back on doing what I was doing. We're all human but this came from nowhere and it's scary the power these damned demons have when they finally get a hold...
Am not going to give in to this mood..I will be better and I will move on...to tomorrow then!
Mandy had surgery March 23rd 2005.
She has only lost 22 lbs. She has a fill of 1.5. She started at 269.:help:
I do not want to harp on her but she has alot to lose and it does not want to come off without a fight.
I just read back over my journal and realized that I forgot to post anything about goals & rewards. Which means the ipod line in the previous post makes absolutely no sense. Whoops.
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REWARDS
-30 lbs. (250) I'm going to buy an ipod.
-50 lbs. (230) I'm going to buy a Van Gogh print.
-75 lbs. (205) I'm going to buy my dream dress.
-100 lbs. (180) I'm going to go horseback riding.
-125 lbs. (155) I"m going to an amusement park and ride roller coasters.
-140 lbs. (140 goal) I'm going to take a "discovery flight" at a flight school.
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I had to do this. My hair was falling everywhere in everything. I'm not mad. I'm rejoicing now.
First pic was my husband snipping my lock off the back and it made me look like I had a bob.
This pic is the fully finished buzz of #6.
This is me for the next few months, bandana girl!
8/14/06 - went to Lap Band seminar. Met Paul at the same table. 8/24 - apt with Dr. Plundo to see about insurance route. Making list of diets/problems that will be needed. Weight 298 , BM 48
School will be starting on 8/28, Lifestyle membership runs out 9/3, trying to walk and workout more at home. Concerned about after membership is up with busy season coming.
We got to Wednesday already, how did that happen:confused: ?
I was more than surprised to see I'd dropped 2lbs this week. I guess the treadmill doesn much more of a job than swimming as a general rule..well for me anyway but am still gonna go to my pool cos it makes a change.
I went for a walk outside today and enjoyed it although it was very hot. Then later I had an NSV...Jordan always does the shopping when I do my lessons because I could never cope with standing so long...my back would be killing me 10mins in. Today he needed to go see his kids and so I said drop me off at the supermarket and I'll see how I get on. I did the lot. Shopped, did the check out and packed the bags. Then I wandered around the little stores around the edge of the supermarket and in the bag store a new bag just jumped into my trolley and refused to leave...what could I do except buy it???????????????????????? Jordan despairs...he said was I gonna do the shopping every week now- until I asked if I could visit the stores too every week :eek: :guess :confused:
That's all..see ya next time in Ali's wonderful world of complete and utter nonsense and ramblings...great place to visit but get out while you can!
Got fill yesterday and the Dr. told me that he is concerned because when he went to give me fill in my band he only pulled out a very small amount of previous fill of 1.5 cc. When he gave me that one, he said it was bone dry. He gave me 2 cc and told me he thinks maybe I have a hole in my band that was punctured during surgery. When I go back in 4 weeks he wants to see how much is left in band from this fill so he can decide what to do next. Really hoping it's not a hole because then it will have to be replaced :eek:
I had gained back 2 pounds since last time I got a fill so hopefully I will feel tighter this time.
Okay, so I thought DH was on board with the LB surgery. I guess I was wrong! :confused: He is not worried about the cost, so he says. He does not like the idea of going to Mexico for the surgery. And, now he says that I really don't need it-- that a could lose 20-30 lbs. this year and 30-40 lbs. next year. He has known me since I was 13 years old and knows that I have lost weight before and have never been able to keep it off. I am 37 years old and if I continue to be obese or go up and down with my weight, it will affect my health and I am already seeing signs of it -- high blood pressure, joint aches and high cholesterol!
He doesn't understand my struggle because he has been thin his whole life and he comes from a thin family. :tired He did say that he is not totally against it. I really do want his support on this!
Onto my pre-band drinking/eating.:hungry: Today I am going to drink water 30 mins. before eating and take tiny bites and chew, chew, chew to practice for my band life. I did have a fiber drink this morning but I forgot to drink it S L O W L Y.:rolleyes oops! I am also going to have only 1 diet coke today and slowly wean off of it. I would like to be completely off of it the week before surgery.
As for exercise. :eek: I am going to try to get on my treadmill for 30 mins. today also.
Im in Mexico since yesterday. WHAT an experience! Waiting for the van to take the group of us to the clinic for surgery today. Feeling jittery, nervous, and good all at the same time.
I will post again after surgery!!
I didn't gain! I actually lost another pound??? This band is nuts! Love it.. so long as I don't lose my hair!!
8:30 am Breakfast: Atkins chocolate shake.
10:30 am Snack: SF chocolate pudding
1:00 pm Lunch: Taco salad (1/2 avocado, 1 sm tomatoe, 1/8 minced up onion, 1/4 cup lettuce, 1/3 cup taco meat made with salsa) I think I could eat taco's everyday.. my favorite food!! next to chocolate lol.
6:00 pm Supper: Same as lunch, except 1/2 cup meat and 1/2 cup lettuce.
Water: 90 oz.
Vitamins: 1 viactiv multi, 2 calciums
Goal: I need to get going on the biotin and stuff.. I really don't want to lose my hair. I almost hope the scale shows no weight loss tomorrow lol. But then again maybe its just a side affect of anesthesia? Thats a bummer if it is. Hmm well if im going to lose my hair anyway I hope the scale is kind in the morning!
It is Wednesday, I'm Ok because I know that I am blessed. I have to find the motivation to keep going and do more and do better. I have to make a phone call or two and I will be fine. Life is short......I want to LIVE IT!!!!
I gained 3 pounds, I'm ok but I don't like it. I will be out of the 380's this month. I will begin 30 minutes a day, everyday.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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