Wow, boy was I hit with the post-op blues last night and this morning. I watched a pretty sad moving on TV last night and it made me cry. I didn't stop crying until over 3 hours later. I couldn't sleep, all I did was lay there and cry. This is very strange because I take medication that regulates my moods and I haven't had a cry like this in a long time. I know there is nothing wrong and there is definitely not anything making me upset. So, I just kept grabbing tissues and cried it all out. I was still tearing up this morning a small bit.
I keep reading how at about 11 days post op, you lose most of your restriction because the swelling finally goes down. I really can't eat very much right now, but I really don't want it to increase. I like it how it is.... I feel perfectly full on very small amounts of foods and satisfied, I might add.
Still can't wear a bra to work. I wore one today and took it off within the first hour. It is just too irritating to my port site and tight on my diaphram still. I asked the Dr. to move my port site a bit lower but that didnt happen. I guess when everything shrinks the top part of my stomach will no longer be touching my boobs anyway, and the higher the port the more discrete it will be. For the long run, I guess it will be ok.
Now that I have finished lunch, I regret not eating a protein. I saw a nice pre-made tuna in the cooler section of where I got my potatoe that would have been a much better option. I need to find more sources of protein. I tried the unjury powder and gagged. I wish they had the stuff in a pill. LOL. hmmmmmm. That is what I will do this afternoon, browse the web for more protein supplement choices.
Morning Scale: 211
Food today:
cup of coffee black w/ 1 equal
Breakfast - 1.5 eggs scrammbled with cheese
Lunch - 1/5 of a baked potatoe w/sour cream, margarine, chives, lettuce and salsa.
protein snack - Quick Weight Loss Center's Protein Supplement - Cappacino (left over from previous diet, obviously)
Dinner - 1/3 of a chicken, broccoli, tomato crepe from La Madeleine.
Excersize: None.
:clap2: i got tired of waiting for them to call so i did , and got a phone call within minutes:biggrin1: have apt on the fifth of oct for my pre surgery talk, and on the 11th i go to the doc at 8 am and see the food doc at 9 , now i am getting excited, only 30 dollar co pay and 150 for food doc. I have been chatting with one of my buddies on here donna and she had her surgery yesterday, said she is just a little sore but doing ok, i am anxious of what happens next.
Today I decided that I give up on the first fill and called and made an appointment for a 2nd...I have heard that there is quite a bit of a difference between the 1st and the 2nd...I just want to get to the point to where I am losing again and so far its not happening...Maybe the 2nd one will be that magic one that helps me along...Got my fingers crossed and going in on the 22nd, yipee! Of course I am going to have a hard time getting adjusted to the new fill cuz I am already pbing a couple times a week, bu all of that is my own fault for not chewing good enough or too fast...I need to learn to slow it down, its all a learning process!:cry
Forgot to weigh myself before eating breakfast and drinking water. Oh well maybe Ill actually see a differance tomorrow. I can't believe I forgot and Im such a scale addict too lol.
7:00 am Breakfast: 1pk. instant cream wheat, 1/2 c. skim millk, 1SF choc. pudding, 1 Scoop unjury. This was not very tasty, the protein powder ruined my beloved chocolate goo. Yuck, at least it was hopefully healthy.:ermm
11:30 am Lunch: LQ swedish meatballs.
5:30 pm Snack: 8 Kashi crackers
7:00 pm Supper: Taco salad (shredded lettuce, Taco meat, avacado, FF sour cream, onion, salsa) SF chocolate pudding.
Vitamins: 2T. liquid multi, 1 Calcium chew, 1500 mcg biotin
Water: >70 oz.
Exercise: Cleaned my house because my house-cleaner was scheduled to come today.. why do I even have a house cleaner? lol ugh, oh well at least my showers are scrubbed out weekly.
Goal: Do treadmil tomorrow, jog for at LEAST 5 min, up my walking speed to 3.5 mph from 3 mph. Also eat less carbs, go back to having my shake for breakfast.
It is September.......I have been posting all over the place today. I think I am in a good mood. I'm not sure why but that is a good thing. I'm normally in a good mood but today I am loving what life has to offer. I hope you can do the same today. Dare I say......I feel blessed today. No mess today, keep to yourself, I like the peace.
Thursday, house music comes on tonight. I want to record a new tape, that music is awesome to exercise to. Woohoo and that is what I need.
388 yep still there or should I say back to it. I will be moving in the office today to burn some calories. My lowest was 385.....I don't have weigh in next week so it gives me time to lose ......dare I say......9 pounds to get to 379......look at that......I like that......379.......375........350 wow
Well, this morning I have very little aching pains at any of my incision sites. When I move or bump things I feel minor pain from them. Desks and conference room tables are the perfect height to bother my incision sites. =(
I am really glad that I decided to come back to work on Day 6, because I don't feel bad enough to be home, as a matter of fact I have more energy now than I did two weeks ago. I have no idea if this is "for real" energy or some kind of natural high from the excitement of the situation.
I tried soaking my timed release wellbutrin yesterday. That didn't really seem to work because I soaked the pill for 6 hours and it hardly did anything to the pill. Well, today I tried crushing it just a "weee" bit and THAT was a worse idea. I got all of the medication and once and was a "jittery fool". LOL. I will just let is soak for 6 hours from now on as that seems to be the best of two not so good options.
When I woke up this morning, my body felt lighter, and I just "sprung" out of bed. It seems like my body is carrying around less weight, which it is, 20 pounds to be exact. I am also not wearing a bra at work again today. I have been chosing my outfits carefully in order to accomplish this . Normally, I hate to go bra-less, but the pain of wearing a bra is so unbearable at the moment that bra-less doesn't bother me one bit.
After yesterday's sausage fiasco, I gladly ate my Dannon carb solutions strawberry yogurt for breakfast.
One of the things that has been on my mind is........that I anticipated much more pain. I read where women had excruiciating gas pains and extreme soreness at their port sites etc. I do have all of that, but I can't really qualify it as excruciating or extreme. After 2 years of going through chemotherapy, malignant tumor removal, removal of malignant tissue from the area of my tumor, and extreme pain that I would qualify on a scale of 1 to 10 an 8. Compared to the pain at my tumor surgery site during recovery this seemed almost like a cake walk. To give an idea of what my pain scale is like, I would qualify childbirth at about a 7. This whole ordeal was about a 3. I honestly have always thought that I had a very low tolerance to pain. I wonder if I do? It seems interesting how everything is relative, maybe this ordeal is more painful for people who would consider childbirth a 10. I guess because I know there are things out there that hurt worse than childbirth it may make my version of pain a bit skewed. Oh well, just something I was thinking about.....
Morning Scale: 212
Food today:
cup of coffee black w/ 1 equal
Breakfast - Dannon carb solutions strawberry yogurt 4oz. (couldn't finish it all)
Lunch - 2 oz of fat free cottage cheese and about 15 grapes
cup of coffee black w/ 1 equal
Dinner - 1/2 cup of organic creamy broccoli soup
Excersize: None
Hmm no movage on the scale today, big surprise! Well today I am going to exercise. Tonight Im having supper with my grandparents so we'll see what ends up being on the menu.
8:00 am Breakfast: 1 instant cream of wheat, 1/2 c. calorie countdown milk, 1 SF chocolate pudding.
11:00 am Lunch: LQ Chicken Fettuccini Alfredo.. my first noodles since banding.. I've died and gone to heaven. No problems eating it whatsever, I made sure to eat the chicken chunks first, 21g. protein, 280 cals., delish!
3:00 pm Snack: 1/2 avacado mashed, 10 Kashi crackers.
6:00 pm Supper: 1 c. mashed potatoes, 1/2 cup of pork chops, 1/2 cup of mushroom gravy, a few bites of creamed cucumers.
Vitamins: 2T. Liquid multi, 1 Calcium chew, 1500 mcg Biotin
Water: >64oz.
Exercise: 25 Min. 3 mph 5% incline, 2 Min. 4 mph no incline
Goal: I ate about 1300 calories today, Im curious to see if any change occurs on the scale, I may be eating too much.. Eat less tomorrow if the scale doesnt move in the negetive direction. Im going to be so busy tomorrow im not sure if i'll get to exercise.. we'll see. Ohh and btw I only had 1 pudding and I did exercise! yay.
I just got done walking a much faster mile - 3 MPH while watching "Destiny's Child" in Concert on Video. I don't usually listen to that kind of music, but the beat is killer - it really got me revved up to which I owe the faster pace.
My friend and inspiration who has lost 100lbs with gastric bypass (her DH has lost 100 lbs with the band) is working on a group excercise schedule - her friend, herself and me - and who ever else we might drag along. I know that walking will only get me so far and I will have to do something to "tone" my flabby body. I'm excited about the prospect of working out with friends!
(Originally posted 5-31-06 - I deleted the post from the thread but I wanted to keep the info)
Well everyone, I did it. I had my first fill today! Yay for me! I have to stay on liquids for A WEEK! OMG. Boo for me. lol
I had my fill at Dr. Jayaseelan's office - very nice people - and it didn't hurt at all. Not even the "bee sting" of the Lydocain. I felt it, but it didn't hurt. I was all in a panic for nothing. I know Janet, you told me - by now you'd think I'd listen to you more often, huh? I'm still worried about infection but it's highly unlikely so I'll just have to suck it up and stop even considering it.
My first fill is 1.4cc's in my 4cc band. I'm worried it might be a little too much, I'm very aware of my sternum area right now. I could feel my water, and now my broth going through, and I'm a little worried about when I move back to solid food. I'm even more worried about the "2 week kick in" ! I'm telling myself that between the frequent first-fill evaporation, and that because my monthly friend is visiting right NOW (of course it had to be right when I go for my first fill!) that maybe that 2 week kick in will be more like an even trade. What do you think? I know, I'm trying to bargain with science! That always works, right?. lol
I am seeing parts of my butt I haven't seen in years! I'm thrilled that my butt and thighs are shrinking before my very eyes. I guess I must have carried most of my weight there because it seems to be the primary area I'm losing - or just the area I notice the most! Amazing how much better my pants are fitting!
I walked again last night - 1.14 miles in 30 minutes. I'm taking it slow becuase I still don't feel comfortable walking faster than about 2.5 mph. I finally had the energy to clean my house - well, not the whole thing, but the living room and dining room area that had been driving me crazy.
I'm able to eat more and I have been - I know this phase is temporary and am still trying to limit my calorie intake to under 1200 calories a day while still trying to get in the protien I know my body needs. Feels like a lot after the limited intake I was having right after surgery but then I realize I could never have done 1000 - 1200 calories a day before surgery. I know that with a fill I will be eating less but I'm still happy with my "shrinkage".
I still have burpy gas occasionally but not nearly as bad as before. My incisions are healing and the sticky glue is slowly coming off my skin.
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September 5, 2006
Well, tomorrow, my journey begins. I have given this fight to Jesus. I am taking the first step by attending the prerequiste seminar for WLS conducted by the surgeon that I have chosen. I have lost and regained the same 100+ lbs ALL of my life. I understand and acknolwedge that the band is only tool and not a genie in a magic lamp. I am very willing to do my part. I already am. I just need help. Making the call to ask to be a participant in this seminar was the hardest thing that I have ever done. I am excited and nervous.
Today, I am back to work. I slept about 21 hours yesterday, so I have plenty of energy. I had bought the sports bras to wear to work but this morning when I put it on, it was hurting my diaphram so I decided to wear my normal underwire bra. BAD IDEA! I have already taken it off and feel much better. I have on a business professional jacket so no one is the wiser!
Every morning for breakfast pre-banding, I would go down to the deli in our building and get either a breakfast taco or a breakfast croissant. This morning on the way to work, my "Mind Hunger" kicked in again. I no longer wanted the sugar free yogurt I had brought for breakfast. I went to the deli and order one scrambled egg and a piece of sausage. =( I divided it into two servings with half an egg and half a piece of sausage. I cut the sausage up into really really tiny pieces. I must say the sausage gave me the worst heart burn I have had in a LONG time. Luckily, I had tums at my desk. I felt awful for about 2 hours until just about 10 mins ago, I let out the loudest most bellowing from the bottom of my stomach burp I have ever burped. Amazing! I felt better immediately!
Also, a nurse called from Dr. Spivak's office this morning to see how I was doing. I asked her what size band I had. I remember the nurse telling me that I had a "small" band after surgery, but I was so loopy, I can't trust that memory. She didn't have my surgery write up in front of her and she said she would call me back.
I mentioned to her that I can only eat 3oz at a time before feeling full. She said that was fine, but that I needed to up my meals to 4-6 times a day instead of 3. She said 3 meals a day is if you can eat 5-6 oz at a time.
I also asked if I could schedule my "30-day" appointment with her and she told me that was actually a combined appointment for follow-up and fill and that I could choose the day. As long as I wasn't having any complications the Dr. didn't need to see me. She told me that it would be time for a fill when I felt no restriction and wasn't losing weight and that this time was different for everyone. I found this interesting because I have seen several women post that 3 weeks after surgery they felt no restriction and had plateau'd. I will post what my Dr.'s nurse said later in the ABC Sept. forum.
I am off to have tilapia (fish) for lunch. I can't wait, I have been craving fish since surgery, so I am very excited. I will have my 3oz of fish and my husband will eat the rest of the meal. This is less for both of us.
Oh, and my husband told me this morning that he has lost 6 lbs. since I began this journey.
My measurements:
I will enter the exact measurements later but as of this morning I am down 3/4 " off both my hips and waist, and 1.5 " off of my chest.
Morning scale: 212
Food Today:
1/2 cup coffee 1/2 pkg equal
Breakfast - one scrambled egg & 1/2 piece of sausage patty
Lunch - 3 oz of tilapia with about 8 asparagus spear heads
Dinner - 2 tsp. of guacamole & 2/3 of a cheese enchilada
Snack - Sugar free jello caramel pudding cup
Excersize: None
Day 5 was yesterday, but I was too tired and sore to make an entry.
I was more tired and sore on Day 5 than I have been so far. I also had a very throbbing headache. I didn't take any pain medication this day and only had a few doses of tylenol. I believe the headache was from "coming down" from the pain meds as this is how I normally react to vicodin and loritab.
I slept all but about 3 hours yesterday. My husband said that he tried to wake me several times and that he has never seen me sleep so hard. I am normally a very light sleeper and the slightest noise has me O.O wide awake.
For breakfast (at about 6pm): I had 3oz of my sugar free, low carb 4oz yogurt cup. each serving has very low sugar because it is made with splenda and a good amount of protein.
Slept in between.
For dinner (at about 1am): 1.5 pieces of lean cuisine ricotta ravioli
I was down to 213 on my home scale today.
I finally got enough strength back yesterday so I was able to finally work out again...Did my full 30 minutes even tho I thought that I would give up halfway thru...Lost 1 of those 2 1/2 lbs I gained from being sick last week...I am really hoping to be able to say that I am at 30 lbs by Sunday, I am really going to work hard at it so that I can make up for my lost week...I think that I will wait till next week to see how I feel and how I am doing about having another fill...I hate to go in for one when I really dont need one and get overly filled but we will see
Today was my oldest daughters first day of Kindergarten. I feel so emotional about it!! I think I might just cry. I need chocolate. Scale did not move today.
7:30 am Breakfast: 1 pkt. instant cream of wheat, 1 C. choc. calorie countdown milk, 1 SF chocolate pudding. (extremely chocolatey goo, perfect).
12:00 pm Lunch: 1 can of Tuna, 1/3 c. Miracle whip, 15 Kashi crackers. And lol another SF chocolate pudding.
4:00 pm Snack: Definitely emotional eating today folks! 1 SF chocolate pudding, 15 Kashi crackers.
7:00 pm Supper: Rotisserie chicken deskinned, a leg and some thigh meat about a cup total, a peeled fresh plum.
Vitamins: 1 Flinstone w/iron, 1 calcium chew, 2T. liquid multi, 1500 mcg biotin.
Water: >80 oz.
Exercise: Puhleez, I was too busy eating pudding.
Goal: I absolutely will not eat as much pudding tomorrow, I absolutely will exercise.
The first is the day before surgery and the second is today -18 lbs, I can't wait until Its like -58, I can't even imagine how thats going to feel.
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Geez, I hope that I'm heading for an easier emotional ride soon - this is hard work!
Anyway, I'm coping okay with everything, not overeating, but not particularly focussed on food right now either. I've basically chucked in the pre-pre-op diet plans, but I'm not having any "last meal syndrome" (or at least not yet... I suppose there's some advantages then...
Anyway, Uncle B passed away last Tuesday night - we had his funeral in Sale on Friday. I made the Bible reading for them, as mum is still away. Sad day, espeically for my cousins. :cry M & C have to take the burden because L is so unwell and out of it. I am so proud of them.:clap2: They are so strong. As if their dad's death wasn't enough to have to deal with, than have to worry about her too. L will be getting a new treatment soon, so hope she pulls herself together - although after all this time, we all doubt it. Her poor kids, she's done nothing for them in their whole lives. We'll be heading back in a few weeks to spread his ashes. After B's funeral, I had luch with E&D & J&O - D says he'll get a band if mine works, so that's 2 or 3 people I'm a guinea pig for so far (2 girlfriends are also watching)! I said they could share my room in the hospital if they sign up now! LOL! :biggrin1: :clap2:
So far haven't had much time for sitting in the sun! But I am working on it!
Trying also to get our home gym room set up - but so far all I've done is think about it and look at the junk to be moved out of there... LOL!
Still counting the days until surgery:
16 sleeps to start of pre-op diet:hungry:
30 sleeps until surgery:sick
So.. still 7 days before my appt. but I've decided to try and lose what weight I can before getting banded so I'm gonna try the slim fast plan. I'm pretty excited about it. It seems sensible and something I can stick to seeing as I don't eat all that much anyway but maybe this will help me get into eating healthier.
One of the best things about Monday's is the fact that it is not only a brand new day, but a brand new week. Which is a great day to start over, a clean slate for the entire week. Today i've done pretty good. I had chicken chili at Jasons Deli <--less than a cup, 4 oz of low fat ice cream, 70 calories worth of blue bunny bars, 1 Jenny Craig desert. All in all i'd say I had 700 calories at most today. I typically don't crave sweets as much as I have been lately though. Tonight I will eat a Jenny Craig dinner that is less than 300 calories and i'll be at my 1000 calories for today. I am posting this really early because it is typically late at night that I lose it and begin eating whatever I want. This is kind of my accountibility or dedication thread. I have ensured my success with not having any easily snackable foods in the house.
I currently weigh 165.
Tonight I will not eat after 7 oclock, that is my mini goal (my very mini goal) It is my hope that I can lose at least 5 lbs this week by not eating after 7. I will have to be careful though. I know that I am very bad about either having WAY to many calories or not enough. This week I will eat breakfast, lunch and dinner, snack and desert and hopefully stay within the 1000 mark.
Breakfast - 200
Lunch - 250
Dinner - 300
Dessert - 170
Snack/buffer - 100
I am very proud of myself thus far. I started off at 216 and am now at 165. That means that I have lost 51 lbs with 20 more to go. If I work at it I know I can make goal by the end of November (my one year bandiversary).
I feel confident that I can do this. I will get through this week and then formulate a plan for the weekend. Which I typically find the most difficult part to get through.
Hello! I haven't had a chance to update my journal until now because I am back to teaching! I teach 8th grade literature and I love teaching!
Well, I have had two more tests since I last wrote. One was really a hoop to jump through, while the other was the "MMPI" psych test.
I was required to meet with a pyschologist and have a general psychological exam done which I was very worried about. Honestly, I do not really trust the person "analyzing" me, I feel that they tend to look too much into things, which I found out to be true during the exam. I had to fill out about 5-7 pages of "mental and medical" history which the psychologist began asking me questions about since we have never met. He looked into the fact that I was a good student and overanalyzed that!
Well, the session went ok, the psychologist was a very patient, soft-spoken middle aged man who asked me a lot of questions about everything, family life, eating habits, boyfriends, drug use etc etc etc.
Unfortunately, my history of depression and anxiety and an abusive boyfriend from the past I think landed me into having to take the MMPI.
This test is meant to look for further personality disorders and other mental disorders. I know that I have generalized anxiety disorder already, and I hope that he doesnt find anything else! The test had a true or false format and there were nearly 600 questions!!! The questions ranged from do you love/hate you father to are there voice in your head that control your actions? The test took me about 1 and half hours and some questions were difficult to tackle both on an emotional and mental level.
I now need to make an appt. with the psychologist to review the results and then talk about the report he will write up for me to send to my bariatric coordinator. He gave me the option of reviewing the report before he sent it or not. He told me that most bariatric patients pass up reviewing it, i wonder why....
I will let you all know how it goes! Take care. :croc:
My husbands outside pressure washing the front deck, the lawn is mowed, the house is cleaned, the kids had baths, and last and most importantly (jk) I lost another pound!! yes! I ate over 1400 calories yesterday and still saw a markedly lower number pop up on my scale. Exercise is the key! Im pretty much getting used to my portions now and have learned pretty well what I can/can't eat, and what pace I have to eat at. Yayyy, the band is great.
7:30 am Breakfast: 13 oz. Chocolate calorie countdown milk + 1 scoop unjury.
10:00 am Snack: SF chocolate pudding.
12:00 pm Lunch: 1/4 Cup egg salad, 1/2 cup tuna salad, 1/4 of an Avacado mashed, 15 Kashi crackers.
5:00 pm Supper: A few bites of ribs, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes, a few bites of broccoli.
6:00 pm Desert: My husband begged to go to DQ, bad bad I gave in and had 1/2 a fudge sundae.
Water: > 80 oz.
Vitamins: 1 flinstones, 2 tbs liquid multi, 1500 mcg biotin, 1 calcium chew.
Exercise: 25 Min. 3mph treadmil + 5 Min. 4mph jogging.
Goal: Exercise! I think its key, you don't even have to lose a lot of weight to see a big differance in how you look and feel.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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