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vinesqueen's Journal
 

freaker/tweaker

I've had three of these episodes now, where I'm a freaker/tweaker for 2-4 hours, but it seems longer.   I just need to know that someone else experiences something similar to this, to know that I'm not alone.   I become frantic, frenetic, like every molicule in my body is vibrating at double what it should be. Can't think, can't make a coherent sentence, can only shake and pace and move and tweak. The first time I was a little euphoric, but the last two times I felt out of control in a bad way.   I don't doubt that If Iwas in public when this happens that I'll be arrested for public intoxication use of meth, or speed or crack. And not in a good way either.   This goes way beyond being "normally" Cushie energetic. There is no way I can get anything done, it's all I can do to not start screaming or yelling. I spent over an hour walking in a circle in my kitchen. I'd get dizzy, so I'd switch and walk the other way. I ended up leaving the house and walked around my block twice, at a speed-walker pace, crying all the while, tears streaming down my face. I'm sure the neighbors were alarmed at my erratic behaviour. *I* was alarmed.   When I"m in the teeth of one of these episodes I cannot hold a rational conversation. I can't even follow a simple one, not really. I repeat myself. I'll say the same thing two or three times, usually the end of the sentence I'm trying to say.   I also get TERRIBLY thursty, and end up drinking a couple quarts of water in one go.   Last week when this happened, I was in the middle of my 32 hour blood draw, and ended up with an ACTH of 59 and 60. Chris at least got to see how bad I was, at my very worst.   I called Chris, not sure how I managed to punch the buttons since my hands were shaking so bad. She told me to start yet another UFC, do a salivary, and get a blood draw at the end of the UFC. I dont' want to test anymore! I wanted it to STOP! I don't want to have another one of those episodes EVER. But all Chris could do was tell me to test. Of course, I wouldn't have ever thought to test while I was in the middle of that. Even though it's happened three times now, it would have never occured to me to test.   When I had regained my brain, after I stopped tweaking, I told my son that he was going to have to make me a drink. He was going to have to feed me rum until I stopped tweaking. I know that alcohol and Cortisol "eat" each other. I just feel like I cannot go through another one of those episodes. I just cannot face it. I know it is a danger signal to think in "black and white" concepts, but I'm just so terrified of those episodes.   But what also frightens me is the thought of the crash that is bound to follow, either this afternoon or tomorrow. Where I'll lose conciousness, where I'll have "extreme weakness" with the crushing pain of the headaches and the back pain will burn my very soul.
vinesqueen

vinesqueen

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vinesqueen's Journal
 

no home Dex.. freaker/tweaker....

they wouldn't send me home with a precription for the dex, so I'm still in the "test" phase. I can only hope they got the numbers that I need.   Yesterday I had another one of those frantic freaker/tweeker episodes. Heh, I'm sure I'd be arrested for being intoxicated in public! I ended up walking in a circle in my kitchen for over an hour... When my brain started to work again, I taught my spud boy how to make a drink for me. He's not wild about giving me booze, but alcohol and cortisol "eat" each other, so I can only hope that one or more stiff drinks will bring me out of it.   I'm so tired of this. I went to bed lastnight at about 3 am, was wired until about 4:30, up again at 6am and then at 8 am again. I am pretty sure this UFC will be really high, but I don't "need" any more high UFCs....   And I'm rambling again.
vinesqueen

vinesqueen

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lind2times's Journal
 

Linda approval process

First time loged onto lapbandtalk. finally finished all pre testing and visits before submitting for approval from insurance :clap2: E-amiled Volingers office to make sure insurance submitted.   Will update later as I am working
lind2times

lind2times

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shackdog's Journal
 

Lost radio contact re-established

Hey mission control: here it is five months after surgery on planet banded. All is going well and I now am a changed astronut. I have lost five pant sizes and three shirt sizes. I have had to visit the local clothing store but this is a new experience for me, I have always shopped with omar the tent maker and they dont have TENT makers on this planet. Thank God for that.   Now I have tokens left to outfit the spacecraft properly and not just with hughe tents to cover the old frame. Now I look like a sleek mean fighting machine and can take on anything that comes my way. I am so grateful that I have other astronuts.........on the same planet because it would be horrible if I were trying to do this alone. It must be done with others and follow the experience of those that have gone before me. The secreat is to follow and then become a leader once the goals have been reached . I will be starting a new meeting here on lap band planet for others to meet and greet at, we will be exchanging uniforms and food supplement ideas. anyone wishing to attend the meeting just needs to let me know if they are in the area or I can give them the info that they need to help them get their ideas set into motion by sending me a message at boiseman2001@yahoo.com . have a grt day:scared: :nervous :confused:
shackdog

shackdog

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LittleBird's Journal
 

I'm still alive

Between hubby having a sleep test, an intensive job interview and the kids back in school ( I am the mom of a new Freshman - yikes!) I have been distracted to say the least!   Approaching the one month mark - feeling good, getting compliments (hey, you're really losing weight!)   I gave my Drivers License to a lady at the mall (had to buy new pants - they were 14/16 not 18/20!!) and she said "Wow, you look different" Pretty amazing considering its more inches than weight at this point. I still haven't budged from the 233 mark, but I continue to FEEL slimmer in my body.
LittleBird

LittleBird

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mysherrijo's Journal
 

T.O.M.

:cry Boy, it's that time of the month and I've ate everything in sight. Not much of anyone thing, just a bite of everything. I have a lot of stress in my life right now too and I think that makes things even harder. I feel pretty restricted but I have an appt. for another fill and by the time that gets here I'm sure I will go ahead and get another one.   Family life is really rocky right now and I don't know why. It seems like every since I got banded my husband hasn't felt the same about me. We were childhood sweethearts and the only people we've ever dated was each other. We've been married for 25 years and some days I think it just wants to be single again. I think he's bored and wants something more exciting. I just don't know what to do.   Well, maybe tomorrow will be better, I doubt it but just maybe.   Good night.
beachgirl

beachgirl

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vinesqueen's Journal
 

Calling Turtles to action, once more into the fray!

When i started this, I thought it would be a trivial matter to get diagnosed, and then treated. Oh, if only it had been that simple.   It's been a real struggle. Doctors who feel that they know best, doctors who won't test because Cushing's is too rare, doctors who won't test because they have a stick firmly wedged up their butt.   It's so hard to read about seeming everyone else's successes, to know that until I get this tumor out of my head I will never have any success losing weight. I go away from LBT, and yet I am drawn back. Perhaps it is because I keep hoping that I too will once day have success, that one day I will be a size 14, not a 24.   I wear the same clothes I wore before I was banded.   But at least I know I have answers. I must hold onto the thought that I will have success.   But it is harder still for me to know that other people are not seeking answers. That they are content to accept the band as yet another failed gimic. That they are not willing to push against the resistance that doctors put up.   Is anyone else fighting!? Or am I alone in this? Fight Turtles! Fight!
vinesqueen

vinesqueen

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KariK's Journal
 

Sicker

:sick Not even going to journal today, feel like crap, eating nothing good or healthy, no exercise. My head is pounding, throat is aching, ear is hurting, everything else hurts too. I better feel better soon.:sick
KariK

KariK

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KrystalB's Journal
 

Dazed and Confused

Hey there,   I'm Krystal and I was banded in Tijuana Mexico on May 19th 2006 by Dr. Sanchez Vidrio and staff. They were a wonderful group and was very pleased with mostly everything. My start weight was 315 lbs and I am currently at 269. That is 46 lbs. I wore a size 26 and now I can wear most 20W's, I was in a 3XL shirt and now I can wear most XL shirts. I had my first fill on August 7th 2006 in Texarkana. When I had my fill my weight at the Doctors office was 275. My low weight was 269 but my weight is fluctuating. I am getting discouraged. I dont feel like I have any restriction. I can eat just like I did before I had the fill. I even have less things get stuck. I called the Doctor and they want me to wait 6 weeks before my next fill. I have 3 friends that have been banded and they all think that I didn't get enough. I got 1.7 cc and I feel like I need more. I just have to remember that the weight did not come on over night and it will not come off over night. I sometimes get drawn back into my old eating habits, but I dont feel like I should deprive myself of all bad things. I just need to stay focused and motivated on what is left. A friend of mine and myself walk 4 days a week and we have been doing that for about a month. She hasn't had a fill yet and she is still dropping weight like crazy. I am so proud of her. I just get confused on why I am not dropping like she is. She is 2 months behind me on surgery dates and she has almost lost as much as me. Which is wonderful for her!! Since we have been walking, I can tell that the dimples in my legs are going away. I know muscle weighs more than fat and I am hoping that I am toning the muscle that I already have, but I have alot of fat on top of that muscle so I will just have to push myself harder to get the definition that I need. Before the lap band I could not exercise. It was a catch 22. It hurt to work out. I couldn't breath and my back hurt, my ancles and my thighs. It was terrible. Now, I can walk a good long distance and still not be short of breath when I walk. Exercise is truely the key to all of this. The band is nothing but a tool. It has been a life motivation for me and I wouldn't change it for the world. I use the dread working out. Now I call my friend everyday that we work out just to see if she wants to go. If she doesn't...I go anyways. It is theraputic and relaxing and in the same since...healthy. I am ready to see the transformation faster of course, but it will only take time. Time is all I have!
KrystalB

KrystalB

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sueol's Journal
 

September 11, 2006

September 11, wow I can't believe it is 5 years since the broken grounds. What a sad day. Been thinking alot about the losses of that day and also their families. What they must be going thru when they see it relived on TV. We all need to pray for them. Well, family is great, as usual. Can't wait until tomarrow 9/12. We go to Boston for my meetings with the Nutritionist and Info Meeting. Back again on the 25th to soo Dr. Robinson. I hope everything goes ok and that he doesn't mind about the sliding hiatal hernia. Well gotta go.
sueol

sueol

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Neverland's Journey
 

Blood Test Results!!

I just had my blood tested today!! My hemoglobin A1C has always been high, and that's actually one of the main reasons I got the operation- so I wouldn't get diabetes. (:sick big, big fear) I don't actually know how high it was, but I picked up my results and it says: The normal values are between 4.4 and 6.5, and mine is 5.6!!! Which is pretty good don't you think? I had a slice of devil's cake at Gloria Jeans today, so I've been feeling a litte angry at myself, but I also walked for an hour to go the movies. Which is something. I guess..  
neverland

neverland

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faybie's Journal
 

Day 12

Well, this past Saturday was my birthday. I was just looking at what I had to eat that day. What a BIG difference! I was discussing with my husband what we would normally do on birthdays and I saved myself probably 3000 calories (what would that be? more than a pound). We usually go to a very fancy restaurant and have a five course meal with bread, appetizers, salad, main course and dessert, not to mention the wine. Not only did I save myself from that but probably saved $130 by not going out. I also usually get cakes from the "dessert gallery" on birthdays in our house. Those cakes run $50 a piece, however they are truly amazing cakes. So a grand totol of $180 savings right off the bat from not obsessing over meals on my birthday. What a nice adjustment. 10 years of that and I have saved myself 1800 bucks just on ONE day a year. Not that this ordeal is in any way related to money, its just an interesting side perk. =)   I peeled my steri strips off last night. The nurse said they should come off between 6 and 10 days and they didn't. So, I decided to take them off. Every incision looks great. The largest one of course is my port site. It is not quite as healed as the others. One of my spots doesnt even have a scar it has a small pink spot. Hard to even tell there was an incision at all. I couldn't find my "madera" (I think thats what it is called) for minimizing scar tissue. So I will stop by the store soon to get some of that.   I wore a bra to work again today. I may be able to make it through the day with it on. I just have to be sure and sit up straight. If I hunch over at all, it hurts too much. The port site is tender. I wonder how long that continues?........   I was also sick all weekend, so I spent most of it in bed. Sore throat, achy muscles, runny nose, coughing, congested ..... the whole works. I took cold medicine and it didnt help, so today I have taken an allergy medicine. I hope that helps....   Morning Scale: 210   Food today: Breakfast - 4 oz of 50% fat free pimento cheese with a small spoon of fat free mayo. Lunch - Dinner - snack -   Excersize:
faybie

faybie

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faybie's Journal
 

Food day 10 and 11, day 10 was my birthday!

Sat 9/9 - day 10 Morning Scale: 211   Food today: Breakfast - 1/4 of a bisquit with sausage gravy Lunch - 2 oz of chicken, 1 snack wells sugar free devil's food cookie Dinner - 1/3 of a La Madeleine chicken, broccoli, tomato crepe. snack - sugar free jello caramel pudding.   Excersize: None   Sun 9/10 - day 11 Morning Scale: 211   Food today: Breakfast - 4 oz of 50% fat free pimento cheese with a small spoon of fat free mayo. Lunch - 4 oz of home baked blackened tilapia. Yummy! Dinner - 2 snack wells devil's food sugar free cookies Snack - sugar free jello chocolate/vanilla pudding   Excersize: None
faybie

faybie

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KariK's Journal
 

Sick

:sick Ugh, Im sick today. Sore throat, headache, earrache, chills, fever.. yuck. I didn't eat on any type of schedule, just ate when my meds were keeping the pain at bay.   Breakfast: Atkins + Unjury   Lunch: Nothing   Supper: Salmon spread, kashi crackers.   Snacks: a coupls SF puddings, they made my throat feel better for a bit.   Vitamins.. ugh I forgot, illl go taks some right now.   water: I don't know.   Exercise.. ya right.:sick
KariK

KariK

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mysherrijo's Journal
 

Starting this journal again and keeping it up

Let's see. I was banded 8 weeks ago tomorrow, on September the 11th. I have had no problems whatsoever, so far and weight loss has been about the norm. I have lost about 27 pounds so far in 8 weeks so I guess that's about 3 pounds per week. Could be better but oh well, at least I didn't gain.   I went for my first fill at 4 weeks postop to Dr. Trace Curry in Cincinnatti, Ohio and he is wonderful and knows his stuff. His office staff are very nice as well. I got 1.75 for my first fill and he said to come back in 2 weeks if it wasn't enough.   So, 2 weeks later I go back, it's a little ove 4 hour drive each way and I didn't want to get overfilled so I ask for .5cc and he wanted 1.0 so we agreed to go half way at .75cc which put me at 2.25 and had me stay over night in a hotel and eat soft scrambled eggs the next morning to see if I was going to be too tight or not, as he doesn't charge for unfills. I thought that was very thought ful of him.   The fill seemed to be perfect and I do have great restriction but it seems like before, I'm only losing 2 pounds aweek all of a sudden and I can gulp my drink but have pb'd twice on bread. I guess it is just fickle.   I'm scheduled for another fill around the 18th of September so I'll see as time gets closer.   I've lost almost 40 pounds and only a couple of people have even noticed. That's kinda heart breaking but I'm sure it will come. I still have 80 more pounds to go.   I really need to bump up the exercise and the water intake and I know it will speed things up.   Well, I guess that's all for now. Check in tomorrow.
beachgirl

beachgirl

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gonnabethin's Journal
 

Skating and Journal Opening

Skated today with divanita2006 and Kutia. Had a GREAT time! We laughed, skated and got to meet face to face!! We plan to go Sept 24th to Ducanville. I started this journal at the urging of divanita and Kutia.   Got Approval 8/18/06 wt 233 Surgery sched 9/14/06 wt 213
gonnabethin

gonnabethin

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ShayDee's Journal
 

Oh yeah!

My doctors appt. is tomorrow. I've been waiting anxiously for a month now. I hope she has good news for me *crosses fingers*   Aside from that, I have managed to cut down my portions. I'm trying to stick with the slimfast regimen but I can't seem to drink even half of it and I feel full but I still get hungry like 2 hours later so .. I chew gum *shrugs*   I guess tomorrow I'll see if I've lost any weight. I refuse to keep a scale in my house because instead of being online, I'll be weighing myself every 5 minutes and I'll get depressed when I see I haven't lost anything.   And it seems to me.. My schedule is so full, I rarely have time to eat anyway so how could I not lose weight? But I'm not holding my breath on that theory. Before I found out about my thyroid disease, I worked in a factory 70 hours a week and it was nonstop walking, running, rush rush rush ( xmas season rush ) and i GAINED 30 lbs in one month and supposedly, thyroid medicine is suppose to help get some of that weight off of you but I'M NOT LOSING!   Please have good news for me tomorrow, Doc.:nervous
ShayDee

ShayDee

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kutia's Journal
 

Roller Skating

I just got back from the roller rink. I had a blast!:rockon: I met up with Divanita2006 & gonnabethin from LBT, they're both very cool. Skating is harder than it used to be when I was younger. My center of gravity has really shifted. The rythym started to come back to me, I just need to work on my balance. I really want to practice and get better, I would love to take part in the skate race. Not win, just feel brave enough (and skilled enough) to join. Since I went ahead and bought skates, I had to go back and change my list of rewards. I made sure to add a reward that will require some activity.   Our next skating session is Sept. 24 at the Red Bird Skate in Duncanville. The link to their website is http://www.redbirdskateland.com/ The address is: 1206 N. Duncanville Rd. I'm not sure what time they have open skate, but I'll check and update my post. Anyone in the area is welcome to come and join us. The more the merrier! And hey, just think about this: roller skating burns 80 calories in 10 minutes. Can we all say "Wahoo?"
kutia

kutia

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