Today when I was getting ready for work I realized I desperately needed to do laundry. The only clean "work" shirt I had left was the one I wore in my "before" pictures. I've been avoiding wearing it since then. I didn't want to put it on and not be able to tell a difference. NOT a problem!
As soon as I put it on, I could tell it felt looser around the arms. And around what passes for my waist. I practically skipped to work.
BTW: I'll be updating my ticker tomorrow. This morning was much too hectic.
Oh my gosh im so happy to have this journal back. I thought it was gone forever. I didnt even realize how much it was meaning to me until it was gone. OMFG yes! lol.
Im just sitting here staring at the journal entry screen with the biggeset grin lol.
Ok so back on track, gotta start journalling all my food again. I just got a fill on Wednesday so I've been on liquids. I can start eating more regular foods tomorrow. Tonight I blended up some soup with noodles in it, Im not sure if it was in my head or for real, but I seemed to get a full feeling quicker.. Or was it the soup?? or was it my band?? or was it.. lol. I'll find out tomorrow when Im eating regular food again.
Exercise well Ive got a toe issue. I had an ingrown toe and it grew out now but my toe is still swollen on one side. Dangit. Im going to give it unti monday to feel better and then decide what the heck to do. I really want to exercise. Im taking this new way of life seriously. I wanna be hot soon! lol well sorta soon, I don't want to lose all my hair. I have a funky neck, I keep my hair long to hide it. I just think my neck is fat. Once I get down to about 170, it doesn't bother me though. I think if I end up having plastic surgery I'll have the surgeon look at my neck and see if he can do lipo on it.
:kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2: Kissing my journal:kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2: :kiss2:
I am so glad the journals are back on! Well, went for my first post op. appt. yesterday. Doc says everything looks good. Allowed to go on mushies. Had some refried beans at taco bell because my pals were hungry so we stopped. Those went down good even though I'm not a big fan. Today I haven't eaten anything except some soup. Might try scrambled eggs later. Going back to work Monday (yee ha). Down 14lbs. yesterday at dr. he said that has been the average for people's first post op. I go back in a couple of weeks. Not sure if I'll get a fill then or what.
Got a new dog Wed. Her name is Holly and she's a 1 1/2 year yellow lab. Owner was moving and can't keep her. So far she's has been really good. Took her for a mile walk the other day. It's been raining off and on all week. I'm hoping to go again tonight. Hopefully it won't start raining again.
Everyone I know is cofused, they keep thinking I had the RNY. Have to keep explaining. Not looking forward to all the busy bodies at work asking questions Monday. It's a regular Peyton place there.
We've had people at work have the RNY and they lose weight FAST. They will probably expect me to do the same. Oh well, I"ll do what I can. The main thing is to get healthier.
I have 24 days until Surgery - Lap band and I can't wait. I am excited, fearful and worried - all those emotions and no food. I'm going crazy at times. My family keeps me sane.
Had appointment with my PCP today. Didn't go so well. I did lose 10lbs but my blood pressure was high and she put me on medication. I had bloodwork done, and EKG and X-Ray in additional to the full physical, so at least that part is over. She was encouraging about my insurance (BCBS UT Select PPO) approving me and covering the charges, so that is good and bad news. Good that I will be covered but bad that I need it.
Ready for the next step.
Had my two week f/u. Kinda disappointed- he doesnt call it mushies, full liquid, but I can have oatmeal, soup with crackers- "cracker paste" consistency, for 3 more weeks. After that then regular food that has been pulsed in the processor to guage bite size. Then 2 weeks after that if im not losing, chewing on my own, then fill.
All my incisions are healing nicely. No pills larger than ASA. My port still tender especially with waisted pants.
Its been 500 years now and I am the only surviving female of my species. All of the original Doctor, Dieticians, nurses, receptionists and patients that I have met thrrough my journey to get a lap band have died off hndreds of years ago. I now weigh in at 5000089 pounds and my insurance company is still telling me that I need more proof that I am fat enough to get this surgery. They figured that I would live a normal life span like all of the other sorry --- patients that they had jumping through hoops until they just keeled over from a cholesterol induced heart attack, but no. I will not die until I get the friggin surgery. It is the year 2506, exactly 500 years and 7 months since I started this journey tward lapbandism. I am old and decrepid but I still want to loose weight, if for no other reason than to spend the gd insurance companies money. I have got used to the mean sales girls and the small airplane seats and the 3/4 length sleeves on the ugly fat lady clothes....why are there 3/4 length sleeves? Are fat women also expected t be dwarfs with 3/4 length arms I mean wtf? Anyway...I am used to looking away when I pass a good looking man in the mall and not laughing too loud as to not call too much undo attention to my already giant size 22 self. I am a funny person who laughs uproariously and often, but only in front of family and friends. I live in a world of stepford wives and peyton place propriety and I am like a fish out of water....I am dying for oxygen with these people who have cookie cutter lives and sizes. HELP! I am surrounded by a credit card weilding, drowning in debt very thin to mildly overweight river of mindlessness. People are measured by what kind of cell phone their fourth grader is carrying...."I got Bipsy a chocolate for her 8th birthday....those razor phones are so five minutes ago!" I mean P A L E E S E!
Anyway, cheerleaders will always be cheerleaders, and jocks will always be jocks and I will always be somewhere above them, looking down and shaking my head at the waste.
Shit...Im not even on anything that warrents this kind of crazyness...well...I better get outta here.
I started by going to my reg md on August 1'st to discuss lap band.
He wrote a letter to my insurance company stating that he feels I
need to have this done and why. He also included in the letter the numerous and failed ways I've attempted to loose weight over the last 10 years...which included diet group meetings, therapy sessions, exercise programs, exercise equipment, and many many fad diet pills and diaretics over the years.
The insurance company got my letter and is "reviewing" my request.
I met with the surgeon on Sept 15'th. He gave me a list of requirements.
So far I have.....went for a full set of blood work, had the psych eval, and had the upper GI done.
I have appts on Oct 5'th with the pulmonologist and the nutritionist.
I then have an appt on Nove 3'rd with the endocronologist.
After all those evals are completed.....my insurance company will again
review all my information and decide whether to approve or deny me.
I am 34yrs old
5'10 tall
287 lbs
46ddd
size 26/28-30/32
I'm glad I found this site and I relaly enjoy reading your updates.
Good luck.....congrats....and take care everyone!
Sept 12,
Went to Dr. today and had lost 2 lbs in the last two weeks , so he scheduled me for a fill on Sept 26th. I have felt very little restriction. I am ready for my first fill
Sept. 26,
Saw the Dr. today and I had only lost 1 lb. in two weeks, my exercising has been off as I have been away from home two-3 weeks and my daughter took a new job and have been spending several hours each day at her house babysitting our new grandbaby( 1month) and 4 year old granddaughter. I have lost about 30 lbs since my surgery. Have not bought many clothes as I have some that finally fit now, but didn't pre surgery. I had my first fill today, but don't feel any restriction or different then before my fill. Maybe it takes a while. I go back in two weeks to see if I need more fill.
It's great to be down those 30 lbs, but no one other than my mom and my husband have noticed my weight loss. That is a little disappointing. I can move areound alot better and can go up and down the stairs a little faster.
I had my surgery on September 6, 2006. I had been working on it since about last October - insurance, doctor visits, psychiatric evaluation, Weight Watchers, etc. You know, the usual stuff. I had it done by Dr.Spiegel after getting a referral to him by a co-worker. It's kind of funny because with all the infomercials and billboards he has out now I think we'll be seeing him on cable with his own show soon. He seems nice and so far I haven't had any problems with him or his staff - they've been very helpful in fact.
The hospital stay... ughh! That is another story. I guess hospital stays are not going to be pleasant no matter what the circumstances are. I was so glad to get home the next day. The following morning after surgery the hospital brought me breakfast - an apple-flavored protein drink, coffee, jello, beef broth and apple juice. Quite alot for someone that is only able to eat about 4 to 6 ounces at a time!
I've made it thru the liquids and the soft phase and have started on "regular" yet restricted foods. As of Saturday, September 23, I have lost 33.5 lbs. I will weigh again this Saturday. I don't want to end up getting scale-shock from weighing too often!
Slowly but surely this band is actually doing its thing!!! I am still totally amazed at how full I get in just a few bites...I have learned over the last couple days that when I start to feel uncomfortable when I eat and feel like something is trying to get stuck to take a huge deep breath and hold it as long as possible and it really does help me...I have been doing my 30 minute workouts everyday except for today when I only got 20 cuz my son had a major life threatening problem with his playstation 2 that I just had to address right then, but thats ok!! It makes me so happy to step on that scale each morning now and see a little difference...I have been adding it up and if I keep going at this rate I should have around a 10 lbs loss for this month (I can certainly deal with that)...The only bad thing is that my uniform pants from work are just about to that stage where they are going to fall off me...Everytime I stand up I am yanking on the legs or the waist to make sure they stay up...Good thing is that we put in orders for new uniforms about 3 weeks ago and are just waiting on them to get to us...So from my 4x shirt I ordered a 3x (i still like big comfy shirts) then I went from a mens 50x34 to a 46x34...Of course we didnt have anyone measure us out for our sizes so I just had to guess...I hope that I did the right thing on the sizes or I am just out of luck for a while...Maybe in several more month and several more sizes down I will even be willing to tuck in my uniform shirt...I guess that would be a great NSV for me!!!
Talked to Debi (insurance expert) in Dr. Veninga's office this morning and faxed over the "New Patient" paperwork. She seems confident that everything will go through fine and that the psyc eval would also be covered by insurance. :clap2:
Received a call this afternoon, it was the receptionist in Dr. Veninga's office calling to schedule my consultation.
Unfortunately, the 1st available appointment is not until Nov. 30th, ugh.:cry
But she did put me on the wait list in case anyone cancels, so hope prevails.
Tomorrow is my appointment with my PCP to get medical clearance and have my medical records sent to Dr. Veninga's office.
So.. it all started out as my boss and his wife being arrested for child abuse.. which I had nothing to do with ( abusing the children, I mean ) but I *did* help with the investigation as far as telling them everything I knew and had saw and even wore a recorder when I was talking to them to get them admitting things on tape.
So, they were arrested and the same day we all lost our jobs ( as to be expected ) BUT, come to find out.. I tried to draw unemployment, and the employment commission wants me to drop out of school to draw a check every week because going to class 8 hours a week ( 2 days of class, 4 hours a class ) is making me unavailable for full time work ( bullshit ) so, I had to file an appeal and have to go to a hearing.. anyway after ALL of that... Come to find out, they reopened the daycare I was working at and decided NOT to hire me back. Why? Dunno. I've been there the longest. Maybe they know I snitched? Not sure. But they are guilty as all hell, I know that much and even if I was offered a position to come back, I wouldn't.
But now, I'm left without a job, no money, bills coming in everyday and my financial aid check is going to be later this time than it is usually and I'm getting so depressed sitting at home everyday but I've no choice because for one, I don't have a daycare anymore, 2 - my daycare assitance from Social Services was cancelled, 3 - I'm lucky to have enough gas money to make it to school those 2 days a week. *sighs*
It's getting difficult but somehow we're managing. I just hope my luck gets better soon.
My weight loss has stopped - I haven't measured yet - in a few days I will, but since I'm all healed and I've been consuming more calories I've just been bouncing back and forth on a few pounds 233-236 (still better than 255!~).
I have been a little irresponsible with my food choices - not keeping as low carb as I should - not too bad, but obviously it's affecting my weight loss. My portions are larger than right after surgery (duh) but not nearly where they were pre-op. I think I'm just not going to be able to postpone a fill - I'll get it done in a week or so and start fresh from that point.
I've heard it said that the first 6 weeks is for healing and not to worry about weight loss during that time (rrriiiiiiiight!) so I am not beating myself up too bad.
I landed my dream job - and start on Monday - the place I'll be working has an on site gym. My plan is to work out at my lunch break. Whoohoo. I'm moving out of sales into account management - for auto dealerships with search engine marketing accounts. Great pay and benefits - my first "corporate-type" job. No weekends.
I should have started writing this before I got the surgery done, but oh well. Things are going well with the band. I am finally at a good fill level. I am already at 4.2 cc in a 4.0 band. They are going to check my levels next month at my next appt.
I have lost around 55 lbs or so, my scale is always off compared to the doc's office. I feel pretty good, but have been losing very slowly. I have stepped up my exercise and joined the Y last week. I do the Body for Life program. Yes, it is hard but is is also very rewarding. I love the results I get from it. I don't take a bunch of supplements, just drink my own protein drinks, etc...
It is frustrating when you spend exorbitant amounts of money, and it is just as hard as dieting in my opinion. I am however, very happy that I got the band. I know I won't gain the weight back because I can go in for fills when I need them, or start seeing the pounds come back on.
Thank God
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name,
Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever,
Amen
I feel blessed, I have been given another day to do get it right. I feel so bad for the people in Colorado. I can't imagine what they are going through. I thought the girl that was injured was going to be ok physically but she died. I know that crime is everywhere but I can't stand the murders that are happening with the youth in the DC area. I don't understand what people are thinking about when they decide to take someone's life. The mother that saw her sons body, how aweful.
Well, I was banded on September 22, 2006. It did not take me long to decide that I wanted to try this tool. Surgery went great. I had my gallbladder removed and the lap-band placed. I am doing well. I have little pain. The hardest thing is getting up and down in bed because I am afraid of using my ab muscles and it is a bit uncomfortable. Other than that, I think all is going great. I am trying to take it easy at home for the first week post surgery. I have to watch myself because I will do more than what I need to be doing around the house. I have not weighed yet, but I feel like I have already lost some weight from the diet and not wanting to eat after surgery. I do not want to weigh until I go to the doctor. I don't want to be discouraged in what the scales say anyway.
9-22-06
Well, my ticker has resumed moving towards the right. Yippee!! I also have an NSV for this week. I weighed myself this morning (always do on Fridays) and had to adjust my ticker. Then when I was getting dressed, I had this crazy idea. I went through my bag of "I'm too fat to wear these" clothes. I pulled out a pair of size 22 petite jeans and decided to try them on. I kept telling myself "they probably won't fit, I just want to see, it'll be okay if they don't." But they did. I put them on, zipped them up and buttoned them. I didn't even have to jump up an down to get the zipper up or lay flat to do the button. AND I can still breathe. I am just grinning from ear to ear.
I've only had a fill for two day and I'm still on liquids. I have to stay on liquids for a whole week until the 27th. This makes my mom upset because she knows I won't be cooking dinner for a week. Since she doesn't cook except on special occasions (like Thanksgiving) that means she gets a lot of peanut butter sandwiches. I think that most of weight loss for this week should be attributed to Curves. I just realized that I am only 10 lbs. away from my next mini-goal! I've already decided which print I want and where it will be hung. This is the link:
http://www.vangoghmuseumshop.com/ProductDetail.htm?productId=9110
and just below is my newly updated ticker. Wahoo.
FIRST FILL 9-20-06
Today has just been the best day. I got 5 new books in the mail from Amazon, I got a fill of 5 c.c. and I got a job that pays a multiple of $5 an hour. My life just doesn't get any better than this. Isn't that kinda sad? Whatever. Let's talk about my fill, shall we? First off, nothing but water from midnight. My doc (who I actually met. It was about time!) did the fill with fluoroscopy. Basically it is a type of xray. (or at least that's what I say, someone who knows what they're talking about might say something else.) I laid down on the table and they positioned a big hunk of machinery over me. The fluoro camera I presume. Then I looked at this little TV screen and there was my port. It was so cute! (o.k. I'm a little weird, sorry.) The nurse swabbed around my port site with alcohol. Then the doc said he was going to inject something to numb the site and he said it might hurt a little. LIAR! It didn't hurt at all. I barely felt it, I've been hurt worse giving blood. Heck, I've been hurt worse stubbing my toe. Then he started feeling for my port. Which also was cool, because I could see his finger bones on the fluoro screen. When he injected the saline, I started laughing. I swear it tickled! The doc probably thought I was off my rocker but that's ok. Let's just hope that my ticker now resumes its journey to the right.
9-15-06 (6 weeks)
I'm finally allowed to lift more than 20 pounds again. Which is excellent because my dog got out and I had to chase him down the street. When I caught him I couldn't put a leash on him. Why, you ask? He had bronchitis a while back and the collar irritated his throat. Plus I kept forgetting to put it back on, but that isn't important. The important thing is, since I couldn't leash him, I had to pick him up and carry him back to my car. Yes, I chased him down in my car. It was early in the morning (early for me anyway) and I was still in my pajamas.
So anyway, I decided I should join a gym now that my lifting restriction is over. For further proof that I should join a gym, see my ticker below. Yes that's right folks, my ticker has slid over to the left. Did anyone ever watch Hee-Haw? "Gloom, dispair and agony on me. Deep dark depression, excessive misery. If it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all. Gloom dispair and agony on me." Of course, it is all my fault. I acknowledge that. I found a forgotten Hershey's Sundae Pie in the freezer. Did I ignore it or throw it away? Based on my ticker, what do you think? I ate the damn thing. Not all at once, it took me several days. Also to add to my guilt I haven't been walking anymore. I went roller-skating last Sunday but no other real exercise.
Now back to my actual topic (the gym, in case you forgot). I joined Curves. I'm going on Monday for my introductory session. The lady there said they would train me on each machine. This is a nice change from previous gyms. I would usually just wander around, say to myself "hey that machine looks cool, I wonder what it does?" Not very productive. I also like that I can go to any Curves gym in the area, there are several nearby. As part of the sign-up process they weighed & measured me. ("yippee" she said sarcastically) So here they are:
bust- 52
waist- 51
abdomen- 55
hips-53
thighs-29
biceps-17.5
body fat- 44.5% :faint:
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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